That being the conclusion, Pain Is Beauty moves from introspection to outward apocalypse, thematically adhering to different strata of human pain. The strident electronic-bass percussion of the primal “Feral Love” bubbles underneath language that chases an elusive, dark Other. “We Hit A Wall,” with its doom-like gait and riff-based guitar work, deals with the struggle of simply loving: “It’s really just the idea and the fact that love isn’t always easy, that it’s a lot of hard work,” Wolfe says. Here, Wolfe says that she aimed to undermine the pop-cultural notion that love is chipper or freeing—“That’s why, at the end, it’s like, ‘I’ll show you how to love’—it’s ‘an endless war,’” she says, quoting the lyrics. The “endless war” of love in “Sick” continues to mar loving, as two people take turns hurting each other. The funereal organs that transform to kraut rock bass traverse guilt and spite in a song that begins with “this suffering brings me closer to you/and time is broken and moves slow.”
True Widow bassist and vocalist Nicole Estill says of the tour with Wolfe, “I think it’s going to be a really good pairing. I think that she’s got quite a huge fanbase behind her that I didn’t even really know about—all my friends are, supposedly, secret Chelsea Wolfe fans.” True Widow are no slouches themselves—they sent Internet reviewers into raptures with Circumambulation’s release on Relapse Records. “Circumambulation,” the exercise of moving around a sacred object within a ritualistic framework, is an apt name for an album that elicited my own introspection and continual devotion to hearing it the whole way through—“I think that, pretty much anytime you listen to music, it’s going to affect you in certain ways. A lot of times it’s emotional—a lot of times it’s mental, and I think that that in itself, the act of sitting down and listening to something, is something that can be spiritual, too,” Estill says. The album does not pay homage to any religion or codified spiritualism, but suggests that music can be “its own deity,” as Estill puts it. True Widow constantly create music and work on new material even when they’ve recently put an album out. Even before they released Circumambulation (at the time of this interview), the band had played a few songs from the new release. Estill says, “We’ve played a full handful of songs on this new album live, and people seem to like it!”
Although True Widow have not made any large departures from their cornerstonegaze sound, Circumambulation functions as a reevaluation of the band’s dynamics—it ekes itself out in a self-reflective way. “It’s, to me, like one big, long breath,” says Estill. “It starts slow and crescendos and exhales at the end in sort of a release. So, I think that it becomes more singular in that way.” The album begins sparsely with “Creeper,” with little guitar and solely guitarist/vocalist Dan Phillips’ singing, until Estill bursts in with another vocal hue in “Four Teeth.” The album is by no means a concept album, but Circumambulation’s aural storyline bolsters its unicity and each True Widow member’s synecdochal relationship to their music. In her own songwriting process, Estill says that she starts out with lyrics first, whereas Phillips begins with melodies and sound. Either way, their songs snowball in ways that continue to be self-referential—“The lyrics, for us—they’ve always been pretty personal,” says Estill. “I think that anybody who writes lyrics, they kind of have to, or else they become uninteresting to you.” Songs like the even-keeled “HW:R” feature both singers, but the song maintains a solid “I”—“I can’t sleep./I’ve tried elixirs too. Dulled it out but still I knew,” it reads. With drummer Timothy “Slim” Starks’ pulsing beats, Estill and Phillips lend their voices to the roles that their songs demand, but for a reflexive satisfaction all the while: “We just make the music that we want to listen to … We like to listen to it—in a weird way—more than most people,” says Estill, with nary a trace of arrogance.
Their ceremony of introspection translates as perfect music for practicing yoga or watching a rainstorm. NPR seems to agree with this, as they featured “Four Teeth” on June 19, deeming their music “perfect for hiking.” As shown by this marker for their success in melding stoner metal and shoegaze, True Widow, too, retain an optimal appeal for listeners. “It’s surprising, actually, how versatile that it is for many different fans,” says Estill. “We didn’t think that it would be so widespread.” Chelsea Wolfe acknowledges the clout that True Widow bring to this tour, saying, “They kind of just came out of nowhere, and I was excited because I really like their music.”
With Wolfe’s circumambulation of nature or True Widow’s ritualized self-reverence, these two sets of artists will amalgamate in an exceptional showcase at The Urban Lounge on Sept. 25. The stage is set for us to gather to introspect at the behest of this music, to situate ourselves and reflect. Estill ponders writing music in a way that’s applicable to experiencing music at all: “I think that it’s also kind of an act of revolving around yourself, too, when you’re sorting your thoughts out or sorting out the world.”